What does one do when they have an overwhelming love for someone but that person is no longer here to receive it?  Well if you’re me, you quietly shed tears making bacon.  Since bacon makes everything and I needed a lot of making better.  🙂

It’s been a little over four months and I find that I’m doing well.  It took me about a month to get my appetite back but I’ve thrown in myself into food, God and work.  (Not exactly in that order.)  I’ve cleared out the negative relationships in my life and patched up ones that should have been mended long ago.  I put a lot more thought into what I say and what I do.  I think about what I want from my life and what I want to leave behind.  All thanks to you.  My promise to live a fulfilling and happy life may hit a few bumps but I will never take it lightly since that was our last promise and your last words to me.

I’m happy even as I cry with a gaping hole in my heart because you have been a part of my life.  I will always carry the happiness of our friendship and the sadness of your loss.  I’m even shameless enough to write of my dependence of your affection.  The proud and independent Susie only wishes to be scolded, teased, comforted and praised by you.  Your nagging over the last decade has really worn me down to become a better person.  Thank you.

Pancetta

Maple Bacon

Fat Rendering (Gone Wrong)